Mixed Emotions Don’t Sit Well

Ada-Hi FallsI cannot begin to tell you how disappointed I am this evening.

Today started like many other days around here, except it all started an hour or two earlier than normal. The dogs wake me up every morning to let them out. They do this roughly 30-45 minutes before my alarm would have gone off anyway, no matter what time I set the alarm for.

When I let them out this morning, the sun wasn’t even up yet. I let them out, stumbled back upstairs and climbed back into bed. Not 15 minutes later I woke to our little dog, Stitches, making some of the strangest noises I have ever heard come from a dog. It sounded like a mix of complete terror and sheer happiness. It was so strange.

I ran down the stairs to see what was going on, and both dogs came running from the back of the yard when I opened the door. I did not see anything (I wasn’t wearing my glasses anyway). When the dogs started acting up, Gidget woke up too, and she ran and looked out the bathroom window. It turns out, a few deer had jumped our five foot fence on their way through to the meadow behind our house. Of course, this startled our little mongrel of a dog and he didn’t know whether or not to be excited or scared out of his mind. I can’t believe those deer jumped the fence to get into the yard and again to get out. I don’t know who was more scared. Stitches or the deer.

We tried to go back to sleep, without any luck, and our day started a whole lot earlier than it normally does. I spent the morning checking in with all the job sites, checking email job subscriptions, and submitting resumes and applications. It gets old, but I figure I will hit on the right job at the right time sooner or later.

As the morning turned to afternoon I sent out a few emails and was completely knocked over with one of the responses. One of the positions I had interviewed for (both phone and in-person) notified me that they had extended an offer to another individual. I wasn’t ready for that.

I have been out of work for three months and we are at a very critical point around here. The creditors are just beginning to call, and if things don’t pick up soon, things could get very ugly. I think I was more shocked with the blunt response via email than I was about the job itself. Don’t get me wrong, the job would have been nice, but this obviously is not the one that is waiting for me. It’s almost like I am happy and sad at the same time. Now I know how the dog felt this morning.

I am still hoping to hear some good news tomorrow about the second position I was interested in. I really like the company, and I met everyone in the office last Thursday, so I am anxious to see if they will make me an offer. Until then, I will keep moving forward.

We keep moving forward, opening new doors, and doing new things, because we’re curious and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths.
Walt Disney